talking to maine now.
havent talked to the girl in months!
and i realise when we do, it's always about THE GUYS.
so yes, i'm glad everything's really good for her now.
and yes, something i have to touch on.

men always say women are complex creatures.
when we say no, it sometimes means a yes.
to all guys (well, if any actually read my blog!)
when girls say they dont like flowers, and that it's a waste of money, it's so not true.
nothing makes a girl happier with flowers on her bed/table at the start of the day.
and seriously, EVERY GIRL LIKES FLOWERS.
you just have to find out what kind of flowers.
well actually, more hugs than flowers would do for me. (:


something which i've always thought about but never got the chance to actually say.

i've been so loved and pampered all my life.
from young until now, and from my grandparents to my parents, to aunts/uncles to J and even some not even related to me.
i've been so lucky and blessed, i couldnt ask for more.
i've learnt to love the way i've been love by others.
the way, not many will understand how i actually do it.
it's a whole lot of loving, just so much to do, with nothing to ask for in return.
and many moree.

actually i think only one will, who loves the way i do.
it's amazing how we can relate sooo much to each other, and how we're alike in so many way.
yes i know, we've not been the same cos of something that has happened.
but never can i/will i ever find someone so alike to me, who can understand without me even telling cos you feel the exact same way i do.
you're like a twin to me.
it's scary but just amazing.

i've never been so confused.
two who mean so much to me.
my sister and my baby.
seriously, how can anyone chose?
it's so hard.
i wish you'd know it's hard and maybe give us another chance at it.
they both mean well, they both love me.
i know, cos i love them both.

i cant chose.
i wont chose.

i will never ever wanna lose any of you.
YOU BOTH MEAN THE WORLD TO ME