oh yeah, you're skin and bones

it's 12:49am right now.
jaz and cherie's on the bed watching this addictive canto crime dvd.

we didnt do much today.
jus walking around some mall and supermarket.
came back to the hotel to slack and sleep. haha.
well sab and i slept.

massage was good.
jus on my right shoulder all the way to my finger.
i didnt know i had the same prob too.
and boy did hamida hit all the right spots on that right shoulder.

it kinda feels good right.
ache-ish good.
alright i'm off to read the book.
while they carry on their carry on their canto dvd.
they react really weird when something happens.
the look on their face, priceless.
hah.

like i always do

using jazzy's laptop right now.
i dont really like the keypad oh wells.

we're in mexico.
had a delayed flight in japan and we missed our original connecting flight.
thank goodness there was another flight to monterrey or we'd have to stay in dallas for a night.

the place is kinda like venezuela.
looking out of the window from our room we see MOUNTAINS.
pretty pretty mountains.

jazzy jus came out from her bath, and she's singin terribly

she's whining terribly actually.

help.
haha.

anyways, the book is good.
the damn was funny.
everything anyone said appeared in the book.
it's crazy but very funny.
ok, noone will get from here.
"had to be there" situation.

ok shay, i know you miss us...
plenty plenty.
we'll bring a mexican guy back for you, that, according to jazzy.
oh yes, my luggage is HUGE, i could squeeze him in.
really.

bams miss you too!
and chubs!
alright took tons of photos but forgot to bring the cable to upload them.
shall take tons and load them up when we get back.

btw, the hotel food, is not that great.
we're lacking water. badly.

anyways off to the alley sooon.
GOODBYE, from wazzy too.

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. from waz. hahahahhha

farewell to the old you

lunch with family and jan.
her farewell and an early celebration.
lawry, i'll always love.

anyways, leaving in an hour's time.
and yes, i've decided against my decision again.
i'm too lazy and wayyy too tired to bring my stuff over.
shall jus sleeeep.
catch up on all the sleeep i've been deprived off.

right now i feel i could sleep 48hours straight.
that's how bad.

i'm leaving.
everything, including you and you.
have i told you how the ipod means the world to me.
and my two books.
and my camera, let's hope it's not some lazy camera trip again.

alright, i'll miss you.
oh wait,
i wont.
goodbye.

i want to hear right now what would it be

these shoulders are breaking

so much for my " i wanna be away from my com for 16days " statement.
as usual, being all fickled-minded, i am contemplating whether to bring my laptop.
i hate that it's so heavy.

went out with the team after training.
sab,cherie,eve,jen and jaz.
the movie, "license to wed"
dinner with cherie, daphne and jaz.

gown trying with cherie and jaz.
i felt like i was gonna get married.

did shopping that i shoudnt have done yesterday.
a top, which i really like, finally something that flatters.
and the BOOK. the lovely one laila's been telling me about.

Norwegian Wood by Haruki Murakami

two books, korean drama, a mac, a camera and an ipod.
i could live on that.
i really could.

i'm not packed yet,
there's tons, but i'm terribly lazy to start.
shall get my luggage later, yes i havent got one yet.
i'm jus gonna bring as little as i possibly can.


it's not all that great.
it's been bad actually.
the whole situation, i've never been through before.
it's draining everyone, terribly.

there's nothing we can do about it.
nothing at all,
and that's the worse part.
i'm leaving,
and i really dontknow how it's gonna be like.
i hope it'll be fine,
i hope it'll be better,
i hope it'll be the end.

there's only so much one can take.

This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race


it's brillant

movie with shay and shaun after training today.
tmr's another movie day, team bonding.
shall go get shoes and books,
and jaz remind me to get rice! haha.

was thinking of a dinner, or maybe a chill out either on the 15th or 25th.
but 15th i've got a ball and jaz wants to celebrate her birthday.
25th singapore open.
then i guess it'll be 35th, which is never gonna happen.

my book and i, and i think trios event.
alegría

alright i've been sleeping terribly late of late.
shall get some good rest,
cant seem to sleep even though i'm tired.
nights.

baby, we're doing just fine

i could blast my blog with a huge "it's over" sign.
but i wont.
but yes, the only thing that's left to look forward to is,
mexico. (:
and book-shopping.

i could watch all the dvds in the world.
a month long break, it's like heaven.

so anyways, dinner and gown shopping with aunite rens and bams.
tried on a few at CK and really loved one colour of their's.
but, the top makes it look a lil weird, but i love it nonetheless.
then uncle kens came, went to paragon but found nothing.
so it's tmr, three places, gown shopping.
i love trying gowns,
it's different from normal clothes. (:
something i wouldn't complain about.

training tmr.
woooooowooooooweeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i cant wait! (:


thanks bams, for the sweet time.
and thanks for listening. (:
will miss you.
plenty.
no fooodie buddy. ):


i felt the whole lift off my shoulders,

it's been awhile

prob vs. non prob

i havent came home so late in a long while.
last night study date at KAP was with R2D2 and the guy whom i took his car keys away(TGWITHCKA).

but before that, guess who came and chilled with me until 2.
SHAYNAAAA NG.
haha. how sweet, staying up just to talk crap and to watch/look at videos/photos.
she did that instead of sleeeping, in that bed of her's.
so sweet aye.
shay, i know your secret. (:

so anyways, KAP's not 24 hours.
it closed at 2.
so we had to head to beauty world macs.


R2D2 and TGWITHCKA(it looks like a complicated thai name. haha.) were bullying me.
yes. i feel imitating me, is bully me.

stats' killing me,
gosh it's like never ending.
and the rest, like seriously miss kwa,
there's only so much a brain can contain (for studying that is.)
i've only got about 2 and a half hours to the paper.
MMR's the only subject i actually stayed up to study.
as in, until 5 in the morning.
that's how bad it is.
ahh! it's like, i was studying from 3pm-2am-5am.
ok it seems short, but it's irritating.
but in just 4 hours i'll be done.

this 4 hours,
this dreaded 4 hours.

i wont lie, and i wont say that it's ok.

something to look forward to.
new ball, (: gonna drill at uncle walter's after exams.
then gown shopping with rens and bams. (:
woot. my first time, shall go have fun and look at all the gowns.
while carrying a bowling ball all round.
gosh.

til laterrrrrs.
laterrrrrrrs, would be in a "it's over" mood.
:D, i cant wait, gosh.

the one when it's productive

went to study with law buddy.
shall change her name to mmr buddy today.
holland starbucks, i love.

anyways, today's been productive.
very, in fact.
the best of all exams,
but that's no diff cos i'm extremely clueless about this topic.

contemplating on which books to bring.
just spoilt for choice.


i hate coming home, i really do.
it's haunting me.
i cant sleeeep.
noone can take it anymore.
it gets so tiring. it's my exams for goodness sake.
let me study, let me sleeep.

just what happened to the you last time.
the loving ever caring one.
now, it's just terribly.
i hate coming home.

i need sunday to come right now.
i need to get away.
i need to leave.
i need rest.

when you say yes

i love my phone.

when i'm on the phone for more than 3 mins,
it goes flat.
when i send about 100 msges, it goes flat.
when i hold it by the top, the battery falls out.
when i type my msges, i see three other colours and half the screen, and sometimes even 1/4 of it.

i foresee a 30dollar bill from this month onwards.
so yes, dont call me, my batt will die.
and when do you and you get cut off, trust me, i'm not the one.
blame it on the weird batt life span.

let's see,
just one more paper.
one more tough and terribly irritating paper,
sorry miss kwa, but there's jus SO MUCH TO STUDY.
unlike the rest of the papers.
what ever happened to save the best for last.

training tmr, finally. (:
i neeeeed to study after that, unlike the rest where i just friends my way even before the paper.
oh yes people, chandler's gonna ask monica to propose to marry him.
well the next time i watch it, which i hopefully wish soon, he will.

been watching tons of dvds.
i've got tons of dramas left, but the one i wanna watch first would be friends and love actually.

why cant exams be like blogging.
they're all similar, they all come from the mind.
plenty of words to pen down.
just that no marks would be given.
but seriously, why do we need marks, or that cert,
yes the status, how people see you yadayadayadayada...
dont see a point.

alright brothers and sisters now.
nutella cake for j today.
love da paolo, and the FAT cat in the pet shop around that area.
oh i love you Paul James.
yes that's what i'll call you.
my fav FAT cat. (:

yours truly







1. an aptitude for making desirable discoveries by accident.
2. good fortune; luck

isn't it a lovely word.


will be gone in week,
i dont think i'll miss anything back home.
and i prefer vice versa.

i hate having the feel of leaving,
knowing you're leaving something behind.
and that jus restricts everything when you're away.
i know how that feels, i've been through plenty.

i'd rather leave,
and leave everything in the past.
everything and everyone.
no longer longing for the past,
and the thing that kept you going, even if it was a short while.

sometimes you leave,
a clean goodbye is what you need.
the past, is a memory, that you leave behind in time.

the best feeling is knowning you're living for yourself,
and for noone else.
selfish as it may seem, but

why give them the chance to make or break you.
why give them to ability to control how you are.
why give them the choice of your happiness,
the choice of your decisions and dreams.




And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

she falls to the ground

from national day

yes, this is the little one i call my brother.
though he's wayyy taller.
and he's only 15 this year.


yes, i had no idea this shot was taken.
yes, we're similar in some ways



from today

with shay bams and jaz


haha.
crazy people.


four of us.


fireworks from national day


green sky from today


then shay got all happy making fun of me.


and again.


and then, i caught her...


and did the same thing back to her.


seriously, we were really bored and tired.


photo of the day

we've told her, 35728975 times to stop trying to kill herself.
but she just wouldnt listen.

please save her.


anyways, studying with jaz went pretty well today.
i dontknow if it was for you jaz, but i hope it did.

merli's tmr,
with shay and jaz?
gonna do something to this hair of mine.

i've been sleeping at weird hours.
terribly late.
eye bags are getting darker.

i've uploaded photos.
from july and recent ones.
finally.(:
it's on multiply.


you're gonna find yourself some place, somehow

wont look back

been in love with plenty of songs recently.
the most recent, 5 mins ago, a song i heard on ghost whisperer

running away - midnight hour

the few songs i've been loving.

three cheers for five years - mayday parade
wait for you - elliott yamin
used to - chris daughty
if everyone cared - nickleback
summer love / lovestoned - justin timberlake
tiger lily - matchbook romance
lullaby - shawn mullins
this is why i'm hot - mims
facedown - red jumpsuit apparatus

some superly old school but i love.
ohh songs of the week/ soon to be trip!

anyways, plans to study tmr.
with waz.
and this time, it'd better work.

just two more papers. (:
gooodnight.

i'm running away,
i'm leaving this place.
and i'll never let you find me.

breakdown the door

i keep hearing your voice.
it's getting so terribly hard.

it's driving me crazy.
i wish the 26th would be tmr.
i just wanna leave,
i cant take it any longer.

please, go before it gets worse.
i dont wanna remember you like this.
i dont wanna be reminded of all these.

please go,
when i'm not around.

the silly ones

sla's terribly failed attempt to emo.




aye, we could do this for a living.




supposed to be studying,
but i couldnt help it.
i felt this strong urge to look through photos.
haha. some crack me up so bad.
oh, i love those times.

how could sla have died?
and dlm, we're living but not living that great yet.
oh save us.

i havent been using my cam for the longest time,
sooooon aye?
photos arent even uploaded yet.
gosh.

to how we used to be

i'm still in love with the song.


training was 3 hours today.
going for training tmr, before my paper.
isn't the best idea, but i should.
i'll be missing a hell lot if i dont.
and i just realise, we're leaving next sunday.
isn't that a tad fast.

cant wait to get out,
and leave everything behind.
it's funny that i dont feel like i'll miss anything,
i'm jus kinda happy about it all.

for every trip, there's always a theme song.

indo 2006 -temperature. haha. (well,woman. (:)

i'll try figure what were the songs for other trips.
i foresee plenty of songs for mexico!
used to, definitely one of them.(:



something terribly similar to what's happening at home.

when you look through it

just saw jan on jay's com.
webcam.
hahaha it's a great way to show my new glasses.
oh i neeed a new mac.

btw, it's really weird to see j speaking to his laptop.
he looks crazy haha.
extremely funny from my view
and you thought people talking on hands-free looks crazy

anyways, i've kinda got some stuff through.
toook a long while though but it got through.


yes, ignorance is bliss.
(:

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24 hours



You used to talk to me like
I was the only one around
You used to lean on me
The only other choice was falling down
You used to walk with me like
We had no where we needed to go
Nice and slow
To no place in particular

We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
When nights were clear you were the first star that i'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be

chris daughtry never fails to make me love him even more.
oh i love love love that song.


let's just say,
the last week, was a big mistake.
and yesterday, a bigger mistake.
i dontknow how to put it but,
it was a childish moment.
childish fears, silly silly ones.

but you know what i miss most?
our friendship.








one of 4 paper's down. (:
lunch with classmates,
movie with ty and shay.

law's on friday.
a day of rest.
shall attempt to study while teeveee-ing later.

grey's anatomy tonight.
i loveeee.
shall buy season one and two soon.
i've been terribly in love with dramas lately.
ah yes, drama-mama.

it ends tonight




i swear it does

gross news

shay and i were at sushi tei,
and we saw a lobster that was just about to give birth.

shay's view:
it was freaking digging its own baby out of it's womb
and jas totally enjoyed watching the whole process.
saddistttttttt

I WAS NOT!
it was friggin gross.


well we're at starbucks chilling now.
shall head home sooon!
tteeevveee.
shay says bye, without saying bye..
bye.

i need to get out!
it's URGENT!
goooodnessss me!
HELP BAMSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.


what time are you leaving?
shall bus out with you!
dont be lazy, NO CABBING!! (:

(communicating through this because we have no choice when we're in front of each other.)

ten feet of the ground

at the office now,
with bams right in front of me.
i am studying (:
finished 2 lectures, in two hours. slap me.

apologize by one republic.
is now the song i'm falling in love with.
and it'll always be in my mind and itunes.
it's superly old school, but i love it anyway.
bams likes it too (:
but no, it isnt one of the 881 soundtrack. hah.

oh oh, i shld be off to study.
and i'm not supposed to be here studying.
oh, laters! (:

our lips can touch

carrying 13 balls to training was a joke.
bringing 5 back tmr.
so yes, those few have been selected.

let's see, it's about one day away from my first exam paper.
i cant really be bothered to count the rest.
and 12 days away from getting out of the country.
dont get me wrong, i love singapore.
i just need a break and 16 day break away from here,
and hopefully, from the cyber world too.

i dont plan to bring my lappie,
books shall do fine,
but you know fickled-minded i am,
so i might change my mind.

no lappie would mean no dramas.
and that's the only thing i want.
oh yes, not forgetting the superly fast downloading system in the states.
it's the only two reasons i'm tempted to bring my mac up.

well i could depend on watching dramas on jazzy's laptop.
(jazzy have i told you lately, that i love you? and i know, it's a terribly bad suck-up, but i'm trying, give me credit)
so anyways, then it's only downloading thing,
gosh, i wish states didnt tempt us so much.


i'm getting terribly sleepy,
and tired of pulling my whole life down.
the minute start studying well for my exams, (which might be never)
i'll sleep early.
i really need rest, and 16 hour sleep would help alot, in everything.
except studying for exams, so that shall wait.


there were two people who made my day tonight.
thank you dear,
and thank you . haha. i have no idea what to name you so you're called " ".


and you, fareast boy, you got me all fuzzy inside tonight

please forgive me, i cant stop loving you


So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time
You’ll be out of my mind
I’ll be over you


ever felt the need to do something,
but your mind's jus spinning and this throbbing headache starts.
well maybe it's just one way of trying to avoid everything.
sub-conciously, it triggers it.

i dont really remember feeling this way in a long long time.
seriously, it gets frustrating, very actually.
you'd jus wish it'll go away, and you'll stop thinking,
but no, it just keeps popping in when you really dont want it to be there.
i hate it, i hate how it's just making things alot worse.

i thought it was done,
now it's far from it.
i blame on the weather.
just something i wanna blame on.
dont we all just love to blame?
the weather, horrible, terrible weather.

somethings you just push the blame,
to anything or anyone in your way.
but somethings you wanna blame, blame a hell lot,
but you cant find anything or anyone to blame,
but yourself.

why cant life just be without blaming.

this contributes to my 38748395678457684753075574 emo post shay says i have.
oh welcome. (:

knew the signs weren't right




Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Take me back to the start.


just had the feeling of wanting to go to the airport,
it's just a place where you feel everything.

sadness and tears, plenty of it at the airport.
yes, a crybaby was what i was in the past.
i used to cry whenever someone was leaving me.
i still do that, but only for people who mean alot to me.

i remember sitting there, knowing it was gonna be the last time.
and as much as i didnt want it to be, it was, the very last time.
then i remember sitting alone after,
watching as planes took off, the memories of it all.
just sat there, crying my eyes out.

why were you so different?


I wish you were a stranger I could disengage

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

notes, you've been neglected.
i love you nonetheless.
hopefully tmr you'll be all set in jumping into my mind,
and on the 15,17,20 and 22nd of this month, be put to good use of all that i remember (and those that i dont too.)

you know i've always loved you.
no matter how much i'm not around or reading you,
u know i miss you so terribly.


for now, it'll be friends,
trust me, i need it more than you right now.
i dont wanna get you all wet.
but u know, you'll always be in my heart,
and in my mind, oh terribly pls.



sometimes,
you jus wonder if you're about to cross the "normal" line.

maybe, it was just for one season



congrats to bern for winning the title of indo open ladies.
how you drop your ball while cleaning it, is classic.
think of it this way,
not many even have the chance of being in that position to drop their ball. (:
congrats again! (:



k now shay would call this emo post,
but no, it's what my heart feels, so yes, not emo,
just feeling feeling. haha.


i'm doing this, cause i know how it feels.
i know this will make you feel better.
but, sometimes it just isnt the right thing to do.

i hate to admit it,
so i wont.
it's so terribly hard now,
when you think it's over, and it's not.

i hate the way you still have that bit of control.
i hate the way you're not gonna be there anymore.
i hate that we've ever met.
but mostly, i hate the way i dont hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.


dear, i miss you so terribly.
i wish i could talk to you soon.
a hug would mean so much now.
it's just times like these i wanna be in your arms, crying my eyes out.
i miss you.

you gave me that sunday school answer


waking up i see that everything is ok
the first time in my life and now it's so great
slowing down i look around and i am so amazed
i think about the little things that make life great

i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect



been staying out late these few days.
those eye bags are showing, terribly.
let's see what happened these few days.

collected my specs that looked great on everyone except me.
hung out with the girls.
i'm terribly forgetful.
oh, national day was yesterday, hung out with willie,mandy,willie's fren,bams,shay,nic and clar.
fireworks were blocked. hah.
supper at tcc,
sent willie home,
chilled out after that.
bad night, i dontknow how to put it, but i kinda feel really bad to that boy.

sometimes, you just wanna say things, but nothing comes out.
and that's when you know you bottle stuff inside.
i dont see the point of talking about things anymore,
i know one day i'm not gonna be able to take it,
but i'll just wait for the one day.

stubborn? i guess so.

the way my thinking has changed is scary.
but, it makes sense to me.

and you know what,
i dont wanna find a way back into love.


that aside,
studying plan (foreseeing a failed plan) with jazzy tmr.
movie with her shay and bams.
seriously i cant stand bams and her 881 show.
really suits her, both so drama
haha. but i love you bams, i always will. (:

been awhile since jaz shay and i hung out.
for that, i shall give them a surprise tmr, if i actually remember.
a small hint, you guys loved playing with it some time ago when we hung out.
hah. (:

she's so high above me




munching on chocolates,
my fav past time.
there'll always be the days where u'd love to sit in front of the tv and munch on chocolates all through out the show.

desperate housewives, brothers and sisters.
love monday nights.

today, coach henry's on the papers.
in "history today"
i think he won all the gold medals in a world championship for all events in 1972.
i was probably about -16 years old, or about 70 years old in my past life.

went to holland v with laila,ris,shu and erv today.
went to the pet shop, two of time.
one with lovely dogs!
another with lovely cats!
told that boy to get a smaller dog cos i'm so scared of huge dogs, but it'll probably get lost in his house, so that isn't a option.

ok cats, i LOVE those cats!
so soooooo cute.
but ty loves scaring them away! i dontknow why she finds joy in that.
so yes, i'd love a cat, i want one.
we'll see in future.

(:

this solitary moment makes me want to come back home




I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to

.
the projects are over.
now it's the four exams, but finally, sleep, rest, whatever you call it.

starbucks was good today.
did about half my essay there,
yes i know a total waste of time, but at least i got somethings done.
ate at many places.
had del paolo again, love it, as always.

saw really cute dogs(read: small dogs) today.
oh love them,
shall go back on friday to have another look at them.

national day week,
tons of hols for everyone.
the long weekend that everyone loves.
yes studying wont be neglected but, i've got tons to look forward to.

1) new specs (:
2) no datelines to meet (:
3&4&5) rush hour 3, simspons and the jay chou movie with jaz and shay? (:
6) no school (: only training and self revision. (:

lovely week to come,
relaxing, i hope.
let's just see how this week goes.

i'm off, to rest, knowing that exams' in a week's time,
but to finish all the project's one accomplishment.

drama-s and books in two weeks time.
i love them.
i love getting addicted to them.

goodnight lovely lovely. (:

it's a sunday

i realise avril has a really wide range.
i hate her kind of " hey hey you you" songs,
but love her slow songs.

i've got tons of fav songs,
let's see the all time favs,

never again - justin timberlake
lovestoned- justin timberlake
keep holding on, i miss you, when you're gone, innocence - avril lavigne
crying - aerosmith
boston - augustana
still - ben folds
so long so long - dashboard confessionals
tiny vessels - death cute for a cutie
once again - frankie jordan
center of attention - jackson waters
the pieces dont fit anymore - james morrison
summer breeze - jason mraz (the one with my name in it. (:)
look what you've done - jet
your body's a wonderland - john mayer
tonight i wanna cry - keith urban
i hope you dance - lee ann womack
home - by chris daughtry and michael buble
beautiful girl - sean kingston
far away - nickleback
dont know why - norah jones
apologize - one republic
hey there delilah - plain white t's
high and dry - radiohead
without you - samantha cole
you, dare you to move - switchfoot
dancing in the moonlight - toploader
baby dont you break my heart - vonda shepard
spoiled - joss stones


tons more, but j's back with lunch. (:
dear d/l them. love them!


shant go to my fav jazz songs.
oh lovely, shall do them another day.


laters! (:




i wish you were here, before it's too late,
this could all disappear

how you're gone, somewhere i cant bring you back

i walked out of the house today loking like some fashion weirdo.
my nails,shirt,bag were purple.
never will i do that again.
and i didnt realise until i reached queensway.

glasses shopping with yiang today.
spoilt for choice!
i tried almost 30 pair?
the guy was really nice, and i was being so terribly picky.
after being there for close to two hours,
i got one pair.
was planning to buy two though. tempting.
it's a green/black pair.
shall get a bright one in future.
i was so tempted to get my favourite shade of red. ):


went to ty's house.
drama entrance.
hate hate hate her kind of dogs.
they jus give u the impression that they'll bite your head off or something.
but yes, ty's non-human.
she's like, i cant describe her, she's jus special.
laila was there with maria who is now the new best fren of tyris' scary dog.
it's really cute esp when the dog's so much bigger than her.

went to club after.
interclub was there.
went over to get the book laila was telling me abt.
got the same author but another book.
oh i cant wait cant wait.
two books, asian literature. how cute.
loveeeeeeeeee such covers, they jus make you wanna read more.

mummy's leaving for korea tmr.
jason's leaving for indo tmr.
everyone's leaving.
i could have gone korea with mummy, really want to but, training's going on.
oh wells

chilling out at holland v tmr with the bim.
shall go off to attempt to do fw.

nights!
after monday, it'll be sleeeeeeping early time.

oh i neeed rest.


the day you slipped away, i found it wont be the same

the 900th post

went to do nails at merli's new shop,
"my hair gallery" at sixth avenue.
jazzy dyed her hair red, well, magenta.
my nails are purple, i like this shade.

team event yesterday,
but bowled terribly badly, but teams mates did well.
monday it shall be (:

i'm off to meet yiang in an hour,
we're making new glasses! (:
dear, when you come back next, let's make bestie glasses! :D

so i'm off to meet her,
then it'll be project with ty and laila,
and seafood dinner with the family.

laters. (:

you're way too beautiful girl

projects, their eating up all of us.
the wee hours in the morning while everyone's asleep, it's students like us who'll have to stay awake.

tmr's the last day of school for the sem.
finally, a sems' over.
half a year's over, amazingly fast.
but no, that's not the start of hols.

2 more project due on mondays, and 4 more papers.
then it'll officially be the hols.

it just gets so tiring.
school, training, work.
school, training, work.
for 5days in a row, i havent slept before 12 since, a long long time ago.
i'd love to though.

thought i'd drop by to update this blog of mine,
cos only in the wee hours i can do it these day.
i'm off, back to mmr report.
i wanna sleep though,
and lying in bed isnt helping one bit.

this innocence is brilliant





waking up i see that everything is ok
the first time in my life and now it's so great
slowing down i look around and i am so amazed
i think about the little things that make life great

i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

this innocence is brilliant
i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect
please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by

i found a place so safe, not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm, i belong, i'm so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere


i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling


it's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling
it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
it's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling
it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
this innocence is brilliant
makes you wanna cry
this innocence is brilliant
please don't go away
cus i need you now
and i'll hold on to it
don't you let it pass you by







I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show