i'm feeeeeeling emo-mo-mo tonight.
and it really isnt helping.

there's many things i just cant show, deep inside of me, they're longing to just explode.
just somewhere inside me, i just wanna sit and cry til my eyes goes dry.
but no, i wont do that. i cant effort to.

i've got sch and training to concentrate on,
and of cos people around who care about me, and breaking down wouldnt be what you'd love any of your friends to do.

it's hard i must say, pretty darn hard.
esp when everyone seems to be giving you emo-talks,
when deep inside, you feel so emo, with tears are about to fall,
you hold it back in, put on a mask, showing that everything's alright.
that's been the hardest thing i've done so far.

i'm pretty amazed.
the jasmine in the past, wasnt able to control her feelings this well.
once she was feeling emo&down, any talk about the topic, or even worse, emo-talks would jus trigger tears.
but somehow now, i'm able to control all that.
you could say i've learnt to just put aside what i feel.
it's amazing how a smile can hide everything.
even though sadness fills your heart.

thank you friends, for everything you've done.
for making sure i wasnt being all emo,
for some, worrying for me.
keeping me company esp when you guys know i'm down.
i dontknow how much to thank you.
i'll be fine, i will.
time heals, i hope...

my emoself has taken over for the night.
please excuse it.