finally, after 5 superly dependent years,
i've got it.

well just ignore the time between 5 and 8pm today,
that was a totally emo moment,
when i just needed someone i could talk to.
and maybe show that they care.

i have to say, i am a lil demanding when i'm moody.


thoughts, are supposed to be kept close to the heart, not said to someone else.
feelings, are not supposed to be shown.

happiness is what you perceive it to be.

dependence comes with disappointment, that comes with hurt.
dependence is a choice, a terrible one i must say.
that's what i've learnt in this 5 years.

i've seen in certain cases,
where dependence results in self pity.
and self pity is the worse kind of pity of all.

take things slow.
something i havent been able to understand and think through.
yes, childish thoughts filled my mind,
and there isnt any space for them anymore.

i've got plenty of things to smile ahead.
plenty of good things. (:

i dontknow what came over me just now,
but if i didnt understand,
i would say i give up.
but, if you do think that it's true when i said i dont understand,
then maybe, you dont know me that well afterall.

i am complicated,
and i like to be.
like you said, if everything was always so nice and sweet,
wouldn't it get boring?

we've got a looooooong way ahead,
so, are we gonna pull thru, or give up?