when you start to use your head more than your heart

everyone would have to deal with breakups at some point or another in their life.
and i do it the humor way.
watching bloopers/friends


Phoebe from Friends.
she cracks me up with her songs.


cos thinking about it right away, would sometimes not be a good idea,
but cheering yourself up is the most important thing.
and if you think you'll probably die without him/her in your life,
good friends out there, you ought to give them a slap (just hard enough to wake them up),
cos seriously, that's what you really need.

i've got a love-hate relationship with relationships.
you love the start, but the middle to the end, helps you grow.

we've all got different view about relationship,
and i really dont wanna meet someone with the same views i have right now,
cos i think it's scary. (ironic)


enough about relationships.
what i've learnt about being home so much of late,
just how much i need food & sugar for energy.
and just how much i'm able to sleep through the day.

facing a screen can be so draining, it's getting so bad.
i need that dose of sugar hourly, or i probably wont function normally. (that rhymes)
i cant stand what i'm doing with my life right now.
i wanna get away, (not in a suicidal way)
i wanna do something (i've got so many things i wanna do, but i never ever get down to them)

procrastination - i live on that word


this year's been good.
procrastination, a norm.
but it's been happy, or maybe i havent been using my emotions of late.
(i feel emotionally dead sometimes)


this year,
i've been in love

- with two singer/bands
- men's cologne
- books/pens (a norm for every single year)
- stoning in front of a screen, all day long.
- sitting/walking in a horrible position that i probably have to head down to the doctor's soon to check out my oh-so-cool back/spine
- carrying extremely heavy bags ( a norm that i really wanna stop )
- tennis, (just for today)
- M.S.G filled-food (thanks to laziness/home-ness)


i need to change so many aspects of my life.
dont get me wrong, i am happy now.
and changing some aspects would mean

1) a happier me
2) a less painful/aching way of life (and this should be priority )


goodnight,
i cant stand the sun. (sometimes)